Memories That Sting & A Father That Never Fails

My Father said to me on his deathbed what I had waited my entire 25-years of life at the time to hear - “ Bonnie you’re so beautiful. I’m proud of you & I love you.” I can ponder on that to this day at 48 years old & still weep as though it were …

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A Grateful Tuesday Rambling

Oh to be fully understood & unconditionally loved.... My, oh my. Selah. What an elusive & what feels like an impossible thing apart from God. And man, don’t we know how to scratch & claw around at everything & everyone else trying to snatch up a crumb of it. I had an exceptionally great day …

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Don’t Let Go

I laid in bed & read some last night before turning out the lights. Which incited things haphazardly swirling around in my mind in normal fashion. I thought about the years I had spent in church, diligently reading my Bible & praying & darkening the doors every time they were open. And judging anyone who …

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I Am Not a Dead-Beat Dad

This excerpt down below is something I have clung to & read & re-read & claimed for months over the life of someone I love very much. The line that has always stood out the most when thinking of them or facing something screaming in my own face is ~ "I am not a dead-beat …

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A Saturday Morning Rambling Ponder 

O Lord, You have examined my heart and know everything about me. You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my thoughts even when I’m far away. You see me when I travel and when I rest at home. You know everything I do. - Psalm 139: 1-3 ~~~  And the beautiful …

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Ramblings On Pain & The Best Daddy Ever

Pain. Something we are all akin to. In some way, shape or form. Some ramblings ~ For me most of it has been emotional, starting at a very early age. I was taught young that people cannot be trusted. Life schooled me that they lie, cheat, manipulate, use, are selfish & self-seeking in their interactions …

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Barbies, Bean Fields, Bent Stubbornness, & Wisdom That Brings Us Home

I was just sitting here thinking & recalled something that happened when I was a little. I don't have many memories from way back when - not like some people. In fact I am always amazed when a person can remember things that happened at age 3, 4, 8, 10. Mine are in patches - some …

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